An invitation to marvel

Location: couch-bed, home

Mood: deep in thoughts

Energy level: 99 %

Background music: World of Warcraft – Arthas, my Son

If I traveled in time about seven hours to the future, I would have ten more minutes before alarm will ring and I should wake up and prepare myself to a meeting in Prishtina. So perhaps I should go to sleep. But no no, thanks to the combination of coffee, a brilliant movie that made me think and overdose of sugar from juice I'm not sleepy at all.

I just saw the movie Into the Wild (2007). It's based on a true story. If you haven't seen it, go and watch it. It reminded me of one episode of the best tv-series ever, Millennium. Luminary is the episode, from season 2. (And now when I checked it, actually the book Into the Wild was inspiration for this episode.) There, Alex (!) Ventoux, who went to Alaska (!) says: Some day, some kid will tell Ian: “You're an idiot. Just like your brother who threw his life away, walked into the woods and died.” That is my favorite episode along with Goodbye Charlie. Another quote from the same episode: Imagine, for one second you could drop in on a past life. What would you like to find yourself doing there? What would charm you? Make you proud? Ask yourself that. And the question what to do in this life becomes so simple it's terrifying. Just to do that thing that would charm you. It would make you say: yes, it's the real me. Do that and you're alive.

Both the movie and the episode catch something that is out there, a feeling of not fitting in to those boundaries that have developed in the society. There's something else. Something that constantly drives us to go out and try to find ourselves. Something that gives a hint of an ultimate pleasure if it is ever to be found, something that sets barking dogs after us to tear us down if we ever dare to stop searching. Standard life is for normal people. What about us who can never stop?

I love this song (from the movie): Society

It was that moment when I turned my back to everything - and felt peace. One day, I will go to Alaska.